Dandelions symbolize everything I want to be in life
Fluffy and dead with a gust of wind?
Unapologetic. Hard to kill. Feral, filled with sunlight, bright, beautiful in a way that the conventional and controlling hate but cannot ever fully destroy. Stubborn. Happy. Bastardous. Friends with bees. Highly disapproving of lawns. Full of wishes that will be carried far after I die.
“She had a hard day, and I accept that. It is easy to love someone when things are bright and shiny, but some times something eclipses the light in her grin. I’m going to be there even when it’s pitch black. You see, I lost my fear of the dark when I met her. Now I’m all flash light. I will not ask to turn on the over heads. No, I will kneel with her at the low points and hold a candle And her hand. I’m just trying to be someone who eases the anxiety. I don’t want to change her. I just want to make sure she has someone to lean on through the hard parts. I’m still trying to figure out if this love is good enough for her. I hope so.
So I let my fingers skate over the curve of her back and I try to use finger tip brush strokes to write out “safety”. I run my thumb against her cheek bones and try to match the pace of my breathing. “You are safe”, “it’s okay”, “you are safe”. “I will not be the one to let you down”. Sometimes I wonder If I’m telling myself that or her. I know she can’t feel the morse code in my hands, so I try to shout through my eyes. “I will not let you drown”. Still not loud enough. So I smile between every kiss she lays on me. I smile every time she even glances my way. I don’t deserve this joy, but god I will protect it. We guard the things we care about.”
It’s so weird how we think of leaving everything we have, to go settle in the hills or something. And then we meet a thousand people with the same plans. Like, how heartbreaking that our dreams are so mainstream.
“I hope I haven’t already driven past my greatest moments. I hope there is something beautiful on the horizon that’s just as impatient as I am. Something so eager, It wants to meet me halfway.”
the best versions of us were never enough. we let them thread insecurities into our veins, to silence and force us to show crooked smiles. it makes them comfortable with torture, listen to them say “dirty pretty things don’t get to wish for more.” their carefully placed words leave victims with invisible scars, threading small knives with posioned edges.
This is the bare minimum of decent human behavior for ANY gender. If you are an adult and someone who is not an adult wants to have a relationship with you, it is your duty to, at bare minimum, turn them away.
and like… having crushes on adults is a Normal Adolescent Thing, but it doesn’t mean they’re ready for–or for that matter, want–an actual relationship with said adult. it’s a goddamn developmental phase for kids working out their sexuality, and treating it as a chance to get laid is fucking monstrous.
Recommended tactics to deal with a child hitting on you:
“kiddo”
“buddy”
inform a friend to ensure you’re never left alone with them
refer to own age in conversation
“yeah, I know I look young, but you wouldn’t BELIEVE how awkward it is being mistakenly hit on by a teenager!”
upon that child turning 18:
“Happy birthday, kiddo!”
“Have you registered to vote yet?”
“Man, being a baby adult was so hard, good luck with that”
And as a reminder, teenagers often have crushes on older and/or unavailable people like celebrities precisely because psychologically/emotionally they’re not ready to have a relationship. On a subconscious level, fantasizing about someone you know you can’t be with allows you to experiment with your emotions in a safe way. And obviously an adult taking advantage of that will disrupt the entire thing.
No names.
No judgements.
This is my space.
My inner domain.
Things I love.
Things I hate.
Things I fear.
Things I find funny.
This is my soul.
Everything that I am or was is here.
If you knew my name, would you look at me the same?
Now tell me, Can you keep a secret?